Wednesday, November 17, 2010

Spinning My Wheels

 I just can't seem to get any traction.  You know, that feeling you have when you know you have things you could be doing, but you're just too scattered to focus on anything.  I really dislike that feeling, so I'm trying to do small things to get back up to speed.

I love the fall, so I'm savoring the last beauties of the season as it turns toward winter.  Walking along the Erie Canal yesterday, it was so peaceful, and I took some photos.  These wild grapes caught my eye against the reflections on the water.

I've started my holiday baking - biscotti, and holiday bread.  Both freeze well and will keep until the various family get-togethers coming up.  Right after Thanksgiving my husband and I will make bourbon pecan cake, a recipe from my Mom and a long-time holiday treat in my family.  We haven't made it in a few years, so we really want to this year.  It's like a fruit cake, but oh so much better.  I'll share the recipe when we actually make it.

My Etsy shop seems to be at a standstill.  Although I had a nice big sale earlier this month, I've had no motion at all since then.  I really hope to get a few sales.  It's been discouraging to have so little business after doing so much work.  I need to do more to promote my shop, and I think I'll try having some of my items at a local gift shop that recently opened.  There's nowhere to go but up, as they say.

It's been a discouraging fall for me in some ways.  I'm trying to climb out of the dumps and focus on my blessings instead of on things that have been difficult.  I've managed to work on more ceramics, although I still have no interest in drawing or painting right now.  I've been walking and taking photographs, which I really enjoy.  I finally got the garden put to bed for the winter, and planted some last tulip bulbs a couple weeks ago.  (I'm sure if I find some more bargain tulips in the next few weeks, they might have to come home with me.  If the ground's not frozen, they can be planted.)  The basement is cleaned out, and so is the garage.  I even cleaned out my car yesterday (always a scary prospect, rooting around under the seats where the kids sit).

Finally, I've been working on my application to substitute teach, with a resume and cover letter, and I'll be able to turn that packet in later this week after I pin down a couple last references.  I'm ambivalent about going back into teaching, since I had some pretty bad experiences with the administrative/personnel end of things before I left my last teaching position.  The students were the least of my worries.  But, after being out of the work force for over 12 years, I have to start somewhere, and this is the best way for me to return to work while the kids are at school.  Step by step, I'm going forward.