Sunday, May 11, 2014

Hopefulness and A Little Rest

Wild flowers in Hickory, North Carolina, last spring.

Today is Mother's Day, and my goal is to just enjoy the time with my kids.  Ice cream at Zem's (the local hangout of choice, our favorite treat) is a distinct possibility.  Gardening may happen (but I'm NOT going to clean house today!).  I am so grateful for my kids, and love them more than I could ever have imagined before they were born.  I hope we have a good day together.  My husband and the kids took me out for lunch yesterday, and the kids gave me their gifts Friday night, because they couldn't wait:  lovely gold cross earrings, my favorite bi-colored mini carnations, and a Wonder Woman card.

It's been an eventful week since my last post.  The house went on the market, and we've had 5 showings already (plus a walk-through just for realtors).  We looked at another rental yesterday, and took it on the spot.  I've been home schooling Safety Guy, whose anxiety has been really bothering him (panic attacks several times a day).  The house has been cleaned within an inch of its (and my) life, and I'm still finding small things to clean.  (Shhh, don't look in my linen closet - I haven't gotten to it yet.)  I'm emotionally tired but physically okay, aside from the "I'm not 30 any more" aches and pains from intense cleaning and yard work.  I'm trying to stay positive, and I'm continuing to apply for jobs as I go.

We're excited and relieved to finally have a rental to move to in a few weeks - and we are so blessed that not only is it in the school district we wanted, but we can also keep BOTH cats and the guinea pigs there.  It even has a basement, so Safety Guy can have part of it for his Man Cave, and a garage.  The location is in a nice neighborhood with lots of families, blocks of streets for walking and biking, and a couple parks, and it's close to the city for my job-hunting efforts.  It's also not far from where their dad works, which is good for all of us.  The property manager says I can even do some gardening there.  After drawing a blank for so long in finding a good rental (and seeing the Rodent Palace last week - a massive reality check for the kids), securing this one yesterday is a HUGE relief for all of us.  It's a duplex, and the neighbors seem really nice and even have a daughter close to the Princess' age.  If this turns out to be a good situation, we may stay for several years.

So, over the next few weeks we'll be doing more packing and sorting.  We'll be looking for a climate-controlled storage unit, since one of the things I don't want in the new rental is my mother's 60 year old Hammond C3 organ.  I don't play it, and it takes up a LOT of floor space, but I don't want it damaged in a regular storage unit.  Someday I'll want it back in a house, since I haven't been able to bring myself to sell it, but this rental just isn't big enough for all of our furniture.  There are other things that can be safely stored while we're renting - like the big fish tank, and miscellaneous keepsake boxed items (like the few boxes of the kids' baby/toddler toys for my hypothetical future grandchildren).  We'll have some storage in the duplex, since it has a basement, but I'd rather maximize the living space.  The bedrooms are very small, so the kids will have to prioritize their stuff too.

On the education front, Safety Guy's IEP meeting is tomorrow.  I just want to make sure it has what he needs to go to the new district.  I don't want to fight out the events of the past month/several years there it's the wrong time/place, and I'll be meeting with the IEP team in his new school over the summer anyhow.  I just want some closure.  I'm going to look into transferring our son to the new district early (i.e. the first week of June as a home schooler), and I'll be talking with them about how to make his transition go as smoothly as possible in the fall.

So, rest is a relative term.  But I'm still hopeful that things are starting to turn around and come together, and that by the end of the summer we'll have many things settled that are currently up in the air.  I pray for peace and wisdom as we continue to walk along this path.